An Interpretation of Psalm 28 for those who are hurting
You have Parkinson’s disease. Or maybe it’s cancer. MS. Crone’s disease. Depression. Or, maybe an addiction. Perhaps a habit you want to break but can’t seem to do it. The Lord is your light, guiding you on this journey of life, whatever your struggle.
If the Lord is your light, what is it that you fear? If the Lord is the stronghold in your life, what is it that you afraid of?
When thoughts of giving up or giving in come upon you in an effort to eat away at our peace and confidence in Him, they will be thwarted. When we are attacked from every side and those thoughts seek to break our spirit and render us useless – they will be cast away.
Though an onslaught of useless, hopeless thoughts try to make a place for themselves in our life – thoughts like, “What if this happens?” or “What if that happens?” – even at moments like that… we can be confident. Content. Comforted.
We can approach Him with confidence, with faith as small as a mustard seed in search of the greatest desires of our hearts. We can approach Him without fear. We can seek Him for eternal blessings, comfort in knowing that we will dwell with Him for all our days, our nights and know that in the moments of our sorrows and our joys and yes, even in the moments through our sicknesses and diseases and all the fears that seem to be a part of the package- He can be found. We can find Him in His glory and majesty, waiting to extend His blessings of comfort and safety. We can find Him waiting to shelter us under his wings of strength. Willing and wanting to be our refuge. The Refuge we eagerly run to. The One we confide in. The One we cling to.
When we find comfort in Him, He holds us up when we cannot sustain ourselves. He gives us strength when we are weak. His strength. He gives us comfort when we feel our bodies are failing. His comfort. He gives us a spirit to fight when faced with fear. His spirit. And He gives us joy for our journey. His joy. When we find this sweet spot, this place of rest, we are filled with an peace that surpasses understanding and we find delight in God.
There are times we cry out, “Hear me God! Hear me! I am crying out to you! Have compassion on me. Show me kindness, gentleness, grace. Answer me. Please!”
We run and chase after Him, desiring Him and Him alone. Is He hiding? Does He really care? Have we angered Him? Is He turning away from us as He turned from Christ in that dark moment upon the cross? Is this our cross to bear and must we bear it alone? Are these the fears that inhabit that utter darkness of despair?
Again, we cry out.
“Lord, God, Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit… do not play this game of hide and seek. Do not turn me away. Forgive me Lord, discipline me, rebuke me – anything! But do not leave me!”
All is still.
Do we dare to demand of Almighty God like that?!
King David did.
Yet, God still loved him and listened to his cries. Even called him friend. David was honest to the core.
We may be honest, as well. Not because David was but because God allows us to be.
So quietly and softly we say it.
We feel it.
We express it.
After we cry out, “Do not leave me like so many others have done before,” and then convicted, we add, “Like I have done to You.”
We sit there. Emptied of the fight. Weak and yet renewed by His grace. Strengthened with His peace. Humbled because of His faithfulness. Restored with His truth
As it washes over us – a merciful love that knows no conditions, knows no bounds – we sit there and in a soft whisper we plead, “Teach me to be still Lord, to walk in faith and trust you in each step. May I not waver because of my fears. Do not let them defeat me. They continually seek to destroy my peace, my state of mind, the truth that You still care.”
We take a deep breath. Faith is restored. Trust takes over and fears falter.
“I am confident Lord, that I will see your goodness here on this earth, in the land of those who are living and so… I will wait. In trust and with faith, I will wait.
“Because of You, I will be strong and have hope. I will have an unquenchable courage that trusts in a loving God who fights for me. I will hope for the best, and anticipate the better. I will depend on you to dissipate the darkness in my days and to revive and renew me when the lot of despair threatens to press me down. And, as I wait, I will wait in wonder, watching for Your hand to work in me, while You work for me. And as I wait, I will fall on my knees and You will lift me up.”