another day another handful of pills another day masked with pain
shaking tripping over my own two feet choking on nothing being told to speak up being told to ‘Smile!’ wanting to scream, “I am yelling! I am smiling!” but they think I can do better they think I am not trying hard enough they’re wrong
I am doing my best
trying so hard to maintain to hang in there but some days are so hard
the shadows of despair cling to my heels darkness clamors for my joy and seeks to destroy my happiness it beckons me to come to give up to give in to the pain that wreaks havoc within soul
oh soul, disheartened heart, despairing spirit
I will rest in His arms and wait patiently for Him that I might boast in Him boast of His goodness His faithfulness
the afflicted will hear the afflicted will be delivered from all their fears
I just get so tired of this little monster following me around telling me I’m a burden telling me I’m losing it telling me I’m not going to get any better
Telling me shouting to me that some days are not okay that those some days will someday come to an end
And I know that and tears begin to fall
But some days are okay
I tell myself I’m not a burden that some day it will end but not today
Today I will live to the fullest I can today I will listen to the Voice that beckons me to not be afraid of this valley and it’s casting shadows and to trust in the One who holds me – the One who silences this little monster and tells me that some day it will be over and that is the day I will be home
Sometimes, we despair. Sometimes we lose hope and feel we are withering away. Sometimes we feel like grieving over things we have lost to a disease that can ravage our body until it seems nothing that is ‘us’ remains any longer.
Sometimes, all we need is a little encouragement. Sometimes hope will and does remedy what is ailing us at the moment. Sometimes hope and encouragement can only come through the truth of God’s word.
And. So, may His truth encourage you this day as you remember that it is He, and only He, that can fill us with joy as we face trials in life that attempt to bring us down and strip us from the heavenly joy which is promised to those who believe.
Consider it pure joy…whenever you face trials of many kids, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. …Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him. James 1
He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests before God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7