Some Days

Some days are okay
some days are not

Some days

I just get so tired
of this little monster
following me around
telling me I’m a burden
telling me I’m losing it
telling me I’m not going to get any better

Telling me
shouting to me
that some days
are not okay
that those some days
will someday
come to an end

And I know that
and tears
begin to fall

But some days
are okay

I tell myself
I’m not a burden
that some day
it will end
but not today

Today I will live
to the fullest I can
today I will listen
to the Voice
that beckons me
to not be afraid of this valley
and it’s casting shadows
and to trust
in the One who holds me –
the One who silences
this little monster
and tells me
that some day
it will be over
and that is the day
I will be home

Sometimes Only God’s Word

Roses like Peonies
Roses like Peonies

Sometimes, we despair. Sometimes we lose hope and feel we are withering away.  Sometimes we feel like grieving over things we have lost to a disease that can ravage our body until it seems nothing that is ‘us’ remains any longer.

Sometimes, all we need is a little encouragement. Sometimes hope will and does remedy what is ailing us at the moment. Sometimes hope and encouragement can only come through the truth of God’s word.

And. So, may His truth encourage you this day as you remember that it is He, and only He, that can fill us with joy as we face trials in life that attempt to bring us down and strip us from the heavenly joy which is promised to those who believe.

Consider it pure joy…whenever you face trials of many kids, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. …Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.
James 1

He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Philippians 1:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests before God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

POSSIBLE symptoms of FINDING OUT you have Parkinson’s Disease

imageMaybe you’ve had a finger twitch for a while. Or maybe, just maybe, one of your arms hasn’t been swinging when you’re walking. Or maybe you can’t smell stinky things anymore. So you head to the doc and the doc takes one look at you and determines it’s all in your head. It’s a thing called Parkinson’s disease and the symptoms of FINDING OUT you have Parkinson’s disease now begin.

You are most likely in shock. If this normal, immediate reaction isn’t what you have, then you are probably relieved.

Relieved, you ask? Well, if you are like several others who have been diagnosed with this disease, you have probably gone to several doctors, covering several miles over several years to get several opinions to finally find out it’s one thing: Parkinson’s. Initially, you are relieved. However, once the truth sets in, so do the all too real symptoms of finding out you have PD.

Grief can overwhelm you, leaving you feeling as if you have lost something significant, valuable, irreplaceable. And you have – your life, as you once knew it. However, just because you have been diagnosed with Parkinson’s, doesn’t mean your life as you once knew it is over. And just because you see others with PD struggling unimaginably doens’t mean you will. It does,  however, some things are and will change. But it’s hard to say what precisely will change, as each individual journey with Parkinson’s disease is different.

Anger is a real and possible symptom of PD. Maybe that is how boxing came to be known as a great exercise for PD. Sometimes you need a healthy outlet to get out what’s bottled up inside.

A renewed heart and mind, a change of outlook, and/or a positive attitude can be common among those diagnosed with a disease such as Parkinson’s. You realize the value of each moment, of each day and you find you love life just a little bit more than you did before because you realize things can change in an instant.

One symptom I think we can say we all face – and even struggle with – is fear. It is natural to wonder what it will be like as the disease progresses, what we will be like, how others will see us, what others will think, will we be a burden, and so much more. We struggle with the aspect of fear because, if we have faith in God, we may feel our faith is wimpy if we succumb those feelings. But the thing about fear is that it can drive us closer to the Lord, knowing that He is with us through the dark valleys, leading us to green pastures and still waters to restore our soul.

No matter what your “finding out” symptoms may be, there is nothing more comforting than knowing that He is faithful to be with us through it all, no matter how big, no matter how small.

 

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